so you hate me now? i asked you so many times and you said you dont hate me. i read through all your letters today and whatever was written in them was so nice and all, but then again... so you want to do exactly what you did to isabella to me right. because you hate her, because you hate me. the sacarsm and how you wish id die or sth. so much for me not being another A, another I. im like the worst right.

i dont tell people how gay you are, but you tell your friends(PEOPLE WHO I KNOW) about this. but i really dont care about that. all i wanted was for us not to be enemies. i didnt even ask for you to be my best friend again.

if you want me to give up soccer for you that will not happen because ive come so far and ive done too much to give it all up now. and i just realised that soccer and you came together. i guess mid '08 was the start of a good life... and then arion came and you left. im sorry i love arion too much its just where i feel like i belong and i get to play football. i spent every night talking to you why is it you still think i dont care?!

did you ever like me or were you just my sh because you didnt have your darling? Was the sh thing all just a trap or sth? cause i fell for it. you never liked anything i loved. you liked the stuff i cannot stand. does 4574 mean anything now? it still does for me, but i guess now im just like your darling, after everything im still spamming... if you want me to stop i will.

i dont bring back the happy memories for comparison. i bring them back so that you can see how good it was and how you can not hate me now and be friends again.

i dont want us to be enemies. thats it. i want to leave it all behind. thats what i meant by it doesnt have to be the same anymore.

you're still the first person i think of when i cry. thats because i think about you and cry. and when i do i wonder how can anyone lose a bestfriend by loving football? right now, youre not the last person i want to see. youre the first, but im your last. when i listen to sad songs i think of you, when i listen to happy songs i think of you. EVEN WHEN I LISTEN TO GUITARHERO SONGS I THINK OF YOU.

I DONT WANT TO BE YOUR ENEMY. I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE ISABELLA.
i think you like her more than you like me, or rather you hate her less than you hate me.

i'll do anything else okay. anything other than giving up football, to have my friend back.

i nvr thought i'd be in the same position as isabella, but then again i think im in a worse position...

please dont do this to me its killing me.

how on earth do i float on now?