i love cny, i hate cny.

i love cny because i become rich during cny
i hate cny because thats when my dear friend gets really busy and i end up feeling really sad and lonely :(

whats the point of money when you've got no friends to share it with? i want to share :D im a nice person.

argh sometimes i feel so stupid to waste all my energy on one thing to realise that the benefits/results arent that good after all. I waste my time/energy/life but then a part of me still wants to do it still. its just so fun when its happening, but when it stops, my life kinda stops along with it. :( ARGHHHHHH. i dont want my life to be dictated by one hitler-like thing. ARGHHH but then i cant help it xD nooooooooooo. shucks. im addicted to you :D